What I Learned in 2013

What I know for sure 2014

The last 6 years of my life have been in turmoil for many reasons and several things happened in 2013 that got me contemplating life. So here is what I have learned:

Slow and steady wins the race.

Diets don’t work. Neither do all the new latest fads and super foods.

Obsession doesn’t work. I use to be an all or nothing person. If I fell off the wagon in regard to exercise or dieting then I would just quit, “well I blew it so I can’t do this”. So what! Move on. If I set a goal to exercise for 30 minutes a day and I only do 25 it’s not the end of the world. It’s still exercise!

You can give, give, give and people will take, take, take; and it will still not be enough.

At some point in life you are allowed to come first - why not now.

Moderation and balance are keys.

I am okay with being alone.

Persistence is more important than perfection.

You can’t please everyone so please yourself.

Not having to control everything is very freeing.

I didn’t cause it, I can’t control it, and I can’t cure it.

My brain has too many tabs open.

               and finally…

Accept who you are; unless you’re a serial killer.

                              Ellen DeGeneres

Doormat

2014 Is Not Starting Out Well

door·mat   
                
: a mat that you put on the floor or ground on one side of a door so that people can wipe the bottoms of their shoes on it

: someone who is treated badly by other people and does not complain

                                                                                                         - Merriam-Webster

How much crap does a person have to take before they say "ENOUGH - I am done being a doormat!"

Sure a doormat can be a pretty decoration, a welcoming acknowledgement to your guests; but a doormat is also something that is thrown out in the elements, tread upon, and used to wipe your feet.

People tell me all the time, take the high road, be the professional, but I am here to tell you that it makes one feel like a doormat and I am done with all that. I am done with being treated poorly, used, and beaten down. I am done with being the one who gives in all the time to keep the peace, to work my ass off and get no pay raise, no benefits, no recognition. I am done with coming in last.


10 days in and 2014 isn't looking so great. Maybe I am feeling this way because I started the new year sick, I came back to work from a vacation to a bunch of crap, and I am feeling down in the dumps about money. I am so tired of not getting anywhere financially and professionally. I am not sure where I went wrong but I did go wrong somewhere along the way. I work hard, I am a professional, and I am good at what I do but I can't seem to get ahead. WTF!


I can't give credit because I don't know where the quote came from but someone once said: "I have found that when I am at my breaking point of exhaustion, frustration, nerves, worry, fear, hopelessness, and being completely overwhelmed, that I have no breaking point. I have found that regardless of what the world throws at me, my repertoire of vocabulary does not contain the words "I quit." I am stronger, more resilient, more ambitious, more driven then I ever knew or gave myself credit for."


I am however at my breaking point and if it wasn't for the fact that it would be financially devastating I would quit! I am 1 day, perhaps a weekend away from saying "I quit! I am done, finished, finito."